"Anyway, after the delivery your body comes back down and over a period of two weeks builds your progesterone back to normal levels. With PPD, your levels are very, very low and build up very slowly." - Marie Osmond
"For example, I would talk about sexual abuse and I really felt like I had to, but, what it did to me and I felt like I couldn't write truthfully about PPD without mentioning it." - Marie Osmond
"I did a book signing when we were in New York the day before yesterday. A lady came through and she was just weeping, and said, 'I wish this would have been brought out sooner, my sister is in prison for suffocating her child.'" - Marie Osmond
"I didn't know my mother had it. I think a lot of women don't know their mothers had it; that's the sad thing about depression. You know, you don't function anymore. You shut down. You feel like you are in a void." - Marie Osmond
"I found for me that my safe place was work. I could control my environment. I became very fastidious and detailed, and wanted things a certain way." - Marie Osmond
"I just think that women feel guilty.T he number one thing I found out from e-mails is that whether you're right or wrong it is still your reality. It doesn't make you a bad person to feel that." - Marie Osmond
"I lost boundaries as a child that I didn't even realize it and it wasn't talked about back then. You know, it was something you just buried and dealt with, and moved forward. What could you do about it?" - Marie Osmond
"I think a lot of women do hide it out of shame. It is supposed to be the happiest time in your life after giving birth to a child, you know." - Marie Osmond
"If you have abuse in your past - like sexual, emotional or physical abuse; if there's high stress in your job; anything that really puts your hormones under a lot of stress; or, if you have difficulty conceiving or even giving birth. All those things give you a very high risk factor for getting PPD." - Marie Osmond
"If you're going to be able to look back on something and laugh about it, you might as well laugh about it now." - Marie Osmond
"In my case, my progesterone levels didn't even register. I was at zero. And by the time I actually got help five months later they were still at zero." - Marie Osmond
"It is interesting but I had no intention of writing a book, I had no idea that Marie Osmond would be in here talking to you about postpartum depression. When we were getting ready to start up our second season and we had so much press to do, I couldn't hide it." - Marie Osmond
"It's a no win situation. I had food allergies. My body had basically shut down and decided it was going to die - and I'm a tough broad." - Marie Osmond
"Little things in my past that I really thought were over and done with were still elements of the puzzle that weren't pieced together, and so she helped me do that." - Marie Osmond
"Lots of times, when we feel out of control in certain areas, we find ways to control ourselves in other areas. And I became a bonafide workaholic. I can see now how it skewed my thinking." - Marie Osmond
"My mother told me when she had her last child she felt overwhelmed, overworked, not appreciated, underloved. Something just snapped and she gave the baby to my father and she got in the car and drove up the coast of California, which is exactly what I did." - Marie Osmond
"Progesterone is created by the body - it's manufactured through cholesterol. We starve ourselves as women. We have very low cholesterol diets, which basically means we are starving our hormones." - Marie Osmond
"So, babies are taken from their mothers because they get temporarily insane and it's not the mother's fault. This is the thing: they shouldn't feel ashamed. They didn't cause this. It is not something they did to themselves." - Marie Osmond
"So, for me, a lot of buried issues came up with very sharp teeth and a vengeance. There are certain risk factors to getting PPD: if your mother had it or if you have thyroid problems, which I do; if you have very, very bad PMS." - Marie Osmond
"So, when I could no longer control these buried issues I went crazy. I was so, so depressed. I could not find any joy. Nothing." - Marie Osmond
"The other thing is that doctors test only the most common estrogen level. There are three kinds of estrogen in a woman but they don't test the other two because they are so rare; mine was the third kind of estrogen." - Marie Osmond
"There are some great questions to ask your doctor. If he says 'no,' then you find yourself a different doctor. There really has to be a change in how we medically look at women at this time. I mean, this is not just baby gloom." - Marie Osmond
"They can tie emotion into certain aspects of the body in Chinese medicine. There are a lot of things we can look at.It's been one heck of a journey." - Marie Osmond
"This is a physical thing that is fixable. I know, I'm a survivor. Believe me, there was no way I thought I could survive. There are answers out there that need to be found." - Marie Osmond
"This is a serious, serious condition that is also called postpartum psychosis. And that's where, literally, you get so bad that you end up either hurting the baby or killing yourself." - Marie Osmond
"We know well and we know chronically ill, but there is a whole bunch of gray in between where I think we can heal people before they become chronically sick. I believe our thoughts make us sick." - Marie Osmond
"What basically happens is your hormones get out of whack. Because of the stress in your life your body says, 'I need more hormones.' So, your hormones are trying to produce and produce and produce, and it's even more stressful and it is this wicked cycle." - Marie Osmond
"What happens, basically, is that in the second trimester the body produces 50 times more progesterone than normal. Progesterone is basically your body's natural antidepressant. Normally, an offshoot of progesterone called cortizal functions as your happy pill." - Marie Osmond
"You are in the back of your head somewhere and you want to close your eyes and go away." - Marie Osmond
"You just need to be honest with how you're feeling. But, a lot of women are afraid of it because they think, 'Oh, they are going to take my baby away. They're gonna call me incompetent. I'm going to lose my job. I've got to be tough, it's a man's world.'" - Marie Osmond
"You know, you don't work 30 something years in this business without knowing how to push yourself. So, I just kept pushing myself and pushing myself. The other thing that happens is when your hormones get out of whack your emotions come up." - Marie Osmond
